Thanks Mainly for the responses guys. Your support means so much to me I really can't put words in it, but thank you.
Ashley first off. I should probably let you know something quite cool. Just know (10:08 P:M EST) I got back from a friends house that I was at ALL DAY!!! We played guitar, piano, listened to music, played Games, made art. It was awesome. I will be getting out in the world a wee bit more now
Also I will check out your book you mentioned. Although I'm dyslexic, I hate reading lol so I might not be to happy with it (Or any book lol) But I WILL give it a chance. Thank you
alee,
Thanks for the advice, it is truly helpful. I will try not to get consumed by my life, I have been before....I'll do my best. also as stated above I WILL be going out more (Not online as much)
Also you have a great point, I don't have to date her to have that feeling of "safety". I'll I have to do is be close to her in some form or another. Be it a friend or Boy-friend. Thanks man very insightful even though I had to read in between the lines to get your message haha.
And lastly to all whom posted the following:
Your right, We won't be able to post topics like this when construct gets bigger. When it goes national we will have to be more careful. In the meantime let's enjoy our little sanctuary on the web, away from the world (Wide web) haha pad pun. Anyway point being it will fade but let's not worry about till the time arises.

C-ya guys, and again thanks you!